#ohbabybaby *britney voice*
i feel like mush. blah. be back in a few days
i’m drained. this week has been so trying
these thoughts have been eating me up lately and i just need to say it..
i know you’re a great person at heart. you’re creative and encouraging and i like that about you most. but when it comes to our friendship, i just don’t know. we’re more opposite than similar. you barely know anything about me, you don’t get my humor, and i always feel awkward moments when we hang out. our friendship feels.. forced. when i ask myself why i feel like that, i realize it’s because it probably has always been forced. i feel like i chose the wrong side because of you. and i really think i resent you.
i just looked at my last post and laughed. im so dramatic -_- i’ve been a lil extra defensive since the start of the year. i’m starting to feel like the me i like again. that is, happy, motivated, and pretty tranquil.
i’m still balancing school pretty well. i got my first english paper of the semester back and got an A. my professor had me read it to the class too -_- i thought everyone was gonna hate, but apparently they all loved it. i was so happyyy, especially since i think my writing is shit-tay. actually, i don’t think that. i just have issues when it comes to organizing my thoughts. but i digress.. oh wait, i didn’t. i was finished lol.
what else.. oh, my diet. um i pretty much fell off in feb. i didn’t even weigh myself at the end of the month cuz i didn’t wanna know the number. with that said, i’ve revamped and got back on track since 3/1. and i’m finally gonna start doing my cardio because i’ve been slacking heavy. i also decided to set a goal for myself so that i’d stay on track. i wanna lose 30lbs by june. 10lbs a month is totally doable! and if i keep up with a steady exercise regimen to go with my diet, i can probably lose 15 a month. but only time will tell.
but yeah.. those two things are most important to me right now. that, and trying to maintain my sanity lol.
hope you all are doing well :* xoxo